Comments on: When home isn’t home anymore

By: Mark

Mark — Fri, 30 Dec 2011 15:00:21 +0000

I believe, and I’m also under the “Christian umbrella”. For so many years I attributed the whole BIID issue as a demonic issue, that I was somehow possessed. I just don’t know what to say about all that any more. My mom was schizophrenic, my brother was a drug addict until death, and depression and suicidal tendencies abound in my family. Whether demonic possession or oppression I can’t determine- and I’ve put that in my own “too hard” box. God still loves me anyway, and Jesus died for my sins- God knows the dirt I’m made of and He has grace to forgive my flaws- even that I covet paraplegia.

I’ve been to three pastors about BIID, and they weren’t conclusive about it. One of them even confided in me that he had to avoid high places to combat the compulsion to jump.

The only thing that I can say is that there are brain anomalies and mental illnesses- and they’re not our fault. We humans have only a limited amount of strength to combat them, and we can only deal with them as best we can.

By: elle

elle — Thu, 29 Dec 2011 04:28:47 +0000

…But it does say “Thou Shalt Not Covet.” :/

By: Sophie

Sophie — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 11:53:35 +0000

Like Sean said we appreciate any comments regardless of how old they are. It’s nice to know there are others who struggle with the same issues within the “Christian Umbrella” as me :)

By: Sean

Sean — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 08:01:54 +0000

Hello Julia, don’t worry about the fact it is an older post. All comments are welcome if they are on topic.

By: Julia

Julia — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 05:11:51 +0000

oops I just saw the posting of yours was from 2006… sorry, wasn’t aware of that before. *blushes*

By: Julia

Julia — Mon, 18 Aug 2008 05:10:11 +0000

Hey Sophie,
I can relate so well to what you have written. Especially the “Christian” part. I am a believer, too, and I feel like I should really get myself together and somehow or other deal with this whole thing and meet some decision – either a life in which I am dancing and being “normal” on the outside and maybe even healed on the inside one day or a life in wheelchair. I guess if I don’t start to work really hard and with all I can on my body I will eventually really be using a chair without me doing any body modification… my spine is getting worse and worse.
So this is the time in which I really need a decision. Do I let things go and be happy ever after? Or wouldn’t I be? And this is where I need God to show me the way… I really hope he does help me because I really want to do what he has planned for my life.
Oh sorry, actually I just wanted to leave some “I feel ya’s” here and now I started talking about my own situation… I guess I really need some talking right now. ;)
I hope you forgive me.
Love, Jule

By: Chris

Chris — Wed, 27 Sep 2006 05:16:38 +0000

Sophie,
When you begin to deal with the religion/church/God/thing try and keep in mind that no where in the bible does it say “thou shalt not desire to be disabled”. Frankly I look at it under the same heading as breast enlargements, or wanting to change the color of your hair. God wants a relationship. He realizes none of us are perfect. Try to do what is right and trust God to forgive the wrongs that you do. Beyond that, just accept yourself.