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Wanting To Bite Someone’s Head Off
Written by Sean on Friday, February 13, 2009
Claire was telling me that she felt grumpy and wanted to bite someone’s head off, but she wasn’t too sure why, and her anger wasn’t directed at anyone in particular. She wondered if it was depression talking. I don’t know, it might be. What I do know however is that I often experience similar anger.
Of course, I have depression as well as BIID, so anger could be a sign of depression. It is also said that ongoing unresolved anger can be a cause of depression, which makes sense to me. And I’m not really surprised about our anger.
Consider this: we’ve spent our entire life with intense emotional discomfort, and we have no way of getting resolution.
Wouldn’t that make anyone angry?
There’s something "wrong" with us. We often spend decades thinking we were alone feeling this way. Then we learn we’re not alone. Somewhere along the lines we try psychotherapy or pharmacotherapy and it isn’t helping us, we still feel like we don’t belong in our own body. We hear of people that managed to beat BIID by getting limb amputated. Then we learn that there are no surgeons or hospitals willing to help us in the only way known to work.
We shouldn’t be surprised of being angry, should we?
Tags: Anger, BIID, Depression, Pharmacotherapy, Psychotherapy
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For some reason I happen to be a pretty calm and patient person. Mostly I only get angry at myself. The only time anger has surfaced in connection with BIID is when people (very few) have implied that I am somehow “wrong” to have the feelings that I do.
While I think the unavailability of surgery is absurd, it does not get me into a rage. I deal with it by taking matters into my own hands and refusing to be disempowered.
I used to have anger… but now my anger throught the world has decreased. I don’t know why but I think this page is like a therapy group or something similar. Some of us talks, some of us listens, but at the end we’re very similar between us. And know I’m understanding myself.
Thanks to all
4 On 13 February, 2009, Claire said:
I wasn’t mad at BIID, just mad at my whole life, I guess. Actually, it could have just been hormonal. ;o) I seem to be over it now.
I experience a lot of anger at times as well with no apparent reason. In my angry periods, anything that gets in my way or doesn’t work the way I want triggers a fit of uncontrollable anger – I’ve ended up banging my head against the walls or voluntarily hurting myself to try to calm down a number of times. Drinking did help, but I’ve stopped that. ADs would help I think, but I haven’t found the right one yet. My last attempt ended up with such bad side effects that I had to stop. I scheduled the next attempt in March :)
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1 On 13 February, 2009, Ada said:
No we shouldn’t be surprised by it!!! I have anger. Fortunately, I’ve been able to stop myself from completely flipping out on someone, because frankly it’s not their fault.
But still, it’s the second bad BIID day in a row and I’m wondering how much longer it will be before my rage gets the better of me :)