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Good weekend ahead

Written by Sean on Wednesday, January 1, 1997

I’m about to embark on a weekend that will most likely bring me lots of peace and quiet as well as excitement. I’m going to visit someone I met that not only accepts my using the chair, but actually enjoys me using it. I feel extremely lucky about this. I don’t know what is to come out of it, but for sure I will have lots to think about while in the chair for the whole weekend.

I know that the few times I have been going away in the past, once in the chair, taking a ten hours train trip and other times surrounding that it seems like the breach of routine makes things happen, thoughts flying and I always seem to find answers and solve inner trouble. I can’t see this one being much different than others. I’m looking forward to the boost of my thoughts.

For the last little while I seem to have settled into a comfortable way. I feel happier than I have been and much more accepting of my own desires towards the chair, but I also feel that there is more to be learned, and new planes to reach.

There is one thing I remember happening about six months ago, while meeting with a friend that is paraplegic. I didn’t feel comfortable using my chair around her. She obviously wasn’t happy at the thought of me using my chair. I wasn’t confident about my feelings and the fact it’s not bad to use the chair. And for her to accept it at the times, I would have had to project a strong and sure image of myself. But in order for me to get a little strength, I needed a little bit of acceptance from her. It was a vicious circle. I know not how this will go next time I meet a paraplegic for the first time and s/he knows about my desires.

I do think that I have come a long way and am more solid than ever within myself, and that is a big change.