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Cycles

Written by Sean on Thursday, July 29, 2004

Life tends to go in cycles. Sometimes, it’s good. Sometimes it’s not. I’m not sure where this particular cycle is taking me.

Seven or so years ago, I was near extinction. I was depressed, unemployed, unattached, homeless, and in the middle of a rather huge dose of transability.

I was lucky to be able to stay with a good friend, and she gave me the space to come back from the brink of death. I had nearly killed myself by driving my car into a brick wall (foolishly, I’d not removed my seatbelt, saved my life, totalled the car…) I pretty much crawled into a hole after that.

It took me weeks to come back to the surface and be able to be somewhat coherently thinking. But I did.

That is when I started living full time in the chair. It was good to me. I’m not saying there weren’t bad times. I had my share of those, and some were worst than others. I had the transabled pendulum swing me by the balls back and forth a few times.

Yet, all in all, I did better and better. But the transabled feelings never went away.

So now we are 7 years later, and I’m in the middle of yet another of those "pesky" emotional tempest. And I’m afraid of slipping further and furhter towards that position I was in 7 years ago.

Of course, my situation is wildly different. I have a wonderful spouse, I am employed, I have a roof over my head. Life is not stress free, but there technically isn’t cause for despair.

So! Here’s to hoping this shall pass without too much hardship on me, or my loved ones.

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