Comments on: Cutting Ties With BIID Community

By: L

Tue, 07 Jul 2009 04:46:58 +0000

Seeing as how I have kinda been forcefully removed from the entire BID community, all aspects of pretending, and have been punished in many ways for thinking so (see http://transabled.org/thoughts/sean-thoughts/christians-prayers-and-body-integrity-identity-disorder.htm), I can say that removing myself from everything was, and still is, a bad idea. As Chloe said earlier, I would also be a mess if it weren’t for this site, which I have been for the last few months (worse during summer break).

My recommendation: stay in touch, hang out, and do so moderately (especially if sleep is involved, being tired makes it worse).

By: Seth

Seth — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 08:38:08 +0000

I made an entrance, hung around a bit, and backed off. I’ve realized that the more I come here, and to some other sites, the more I hurt. I come for a day or two, and start to feel better, then think I would be alright if I leave. It never works. I keep coming and going.

My chair has been in the trunk of my wifes car for the last month or so. My wife likes to hold my hand when we go out, and freaks when I say I want to use my chair. Happy wife, happy life. My apartment is too small and not nearly as wheelchair friendly as I would like it to be. As such, I’m stuck with this pain. Sometimes, I’ll pull it out and sit it in while I smoke, just to put it back in the trunk. Since I haven’t had a cigarette in almost a week, that hasn’t happened. Instead, I’ll bring it into my living room and just watch TV in it, just to put it back after the show is over.

Coming here helps. At least for me. For a short time. Then I want it more, and I scare myself by thinking of things I could do to make it happen, but realize I would mess it up and not be happy. I would be worse off. End of ramble.

It helps me, but not for long.

By: Brice

Brice — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 10:56:42 +0000

@Peter: Five

By: Peter

Peter — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 05:21:30 +0000

I don’t know what the solution is. True I questioned my activity in the groups etc. I felt rotten and maybe was trying to blame someone for this. But then I thought you cannot turn your back on friends. But I’m still in confusion… What color is grass again?!

By: Ronald

Ronald — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 15:35:04 +0000

I tend to phase in an out of it. I think I am still trying to locate the website or personal account that will be \”It\” for me, sort of like the best steak I\’ve ever eaten. I do try to control my internet activity, and take a break once in a while when I feel I am becomming to obsessed with it.

By: Ada

Ada — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 23:23:54 +0000

I’m doing it.
I’m pulling myself away. Not actively, rather passively.
True, I’ve been busy.
Six months ago I couldn’t go a day without checking yahoo mail. Now I wait a couple weeks.
I don’t know what to do!
I only know the one thing that would surely help me is an impossibility.
‘Tis been a couple bad BIID days :(
And I don’t care for that one bit!

By: Chloe

Chloe — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 22:04:43 +0000

I would be a complete basket case without you all. Yeah yeah, don’t bother saying it; I’m a basket case anyway. Nevertheless, I am way beyond the possibility of repressing this; nor would I want to.

By: Brice

Brice — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 21:05:52 +0000

Regular, moderate doses of this site are what keep me appearing sane at a time of my life when I have no opportunity to express my BIID self.

By: Sophie

Sophie — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 12:21:00 +0000

I do a lot of “screensucking” on legitimate SCI/disability sites.