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Another Post About BIID and Depression
Written by Sean on Wednesday, January 18, 2012
For a variety of reasons, I’ve been walking and standing a lot over the last several weeks. I won’t discuss those reasons here, but rather mention the impact that it is having on me. In short – it is exacerbating depression.
I was getting into an acute depressive state before I started walking and standing so much. I was on the edge, I could feel it. I was precariously balanced on a teeter-totter, and the slightest change would break that balance. Christmas time came, and that’s always a very difficult time of year for me. Then a personal situation changed and I ended up walking and standing a lot.
This, admitedly, is good for my body. I understand that intelectually. But it’s shite for my emotional well-being.
BIID is not really bad – not by far. It’s always present and always hurts. But at the moment, this is not the biggest problem. Depression is the problem. To make matters worse, I have highly reduced sleep (instead of the 8 or 9 hours per night I need, I’m getting 5 or 6), and increased stresses.
What I’m seeing is the impact of being “forced” to walk, making me that much more uncomfortable in my own skin, which is directly impacting on my ability to handle depression. It’s hard enough to keep depression at bay. When you’re starting from a position of weakness, where you’re not well within yourself, it’s much more difficult.
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1 On 19 January, 2012, Chloe said:
I so wish I could reach down into the depths to pull you up with me! I’ve come out of this last depressive episode so quickly it’s been shocking to me. It’s certainly the fastest it’s ever happened, and something I didn’t know I was capable of.
The psychological pain of walking and standing a lot would seem to be very extreme. I don’t think I would be able to handle it well. This is one of the reasons I wear leg braces almost all the time. When there are occasions where walking seems obligatory it feels a LOT better to be wearing leg braces than not. Would your situation allow you to use leg braces? If so, I would guess that leg braces could make a significant difference to your depression levels, even if it’s not as efficacious as a wheelchair.