Comments on: I Don’t Think I Have The Guts

By: Chloe

Chloe — Sat, 23 May 2009 14:06:31 +0000

Zoe! I have to admit, my heart leapt with excitement when I saw you’d made a comment. I missed you! Thank you for letting us know how things have been.

By: Zoe

Zoe — Sat, 23 May 2009 12:42:38 +0000

Well here i am – is it 6 months yet Claire? Close to it.

It didnt really work – i mean it did to the extent that i was able to convince myself that i shouldn’t act on the thoughts because i’d made a conscious decision to ignore them – but it didnt make any difference to whether the thoughts occured or didnt – because they still kept coming.

Nothing has really changed for me – i’m still the same person with the same concerns, the only thing is maybe i know that i might be able to control them just a little bit – not stop them from coming but just able to decide on a case by case basis how i’m going to deal with them.

In the end though, i still want the same thing i’ve always wanted. Apparently ignorance is not bliss – just a temporary illusion.

By: Claire

Claire — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 13:45:11 +0000

Zoe, you’re right to do what you’re doing. Either it will work, or it won’t, but you won’t know that until you try. I have thought of doing this every day for…I don’t know how long. A long time. I did it once; it lasted 2 weeks. I will probably do it again.

I’ll just ask one thing, if you’re still reading this…if it DOES work, please come back in 6 months or a year or however long, and tell us what it’s been like for you, and how it’s worked, and why, and how that’s changed your life. For our sakes.

By: cath

cath — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 17:55:59 +0000

Thinking of you Zoe. We’re here for you whenever you need us.

By: Chloe

Chloe — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 13:41:16 +0000

Life is complicated. We are complicated. There is no easy way out. We each have to find our own path through this as best we can.

I support whatever you need to do, Zoe. Good luck, and thank you for enriching our lives.

By: Sophie

Sophie — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 12:54:08 +0000

Zoe I hope for your sake you’re able to do it but honestly I’ve learned that distracting myself will only work for a few weeks at most. I’m trying to do exactly what you want to do, there’s a reason why I still post at transabled.org despite the fact that I have to fake being “normal”.

By: Ada

Ada — Tue, 13 Jan 2009 11:56:16 +0000

Zoe, I share these sentiments every, single day! Yet here I am, on this site posting comment.

We each have to choose what is the better decision for us in our lives, because we can’t choose the *best*. I’m finding I make these decisions several times a day.

Good luck to you! I hope you can find some peace in setting this aside. And if you don’t, well, we’ll be here :)