you might haven’t noticed, but you are strong; otherwise you would already have had a total breakdown. Just don’t try to ask yourself for too much in too short time.

Weight problem? So what? You might just need some extra armor around your heart because you are in danger of being hurt too much.

We all need to learn to find out what does us good and how to listen to our most inner self. That’s a process that never ends.

You’re on the way. Be nice to yourself, otherways you won’t hear your heart speaking. It’s easily scared.

When your mother tries to load things on your shoulders, can you think of ways to
(a) hinder her
(b) step aside so that her crap simply falls down on the earth
(c) unload yourself after a while?

Best wishes

I have no idea how I manage to live under the pressure, thinking about my situation makes me cry sometimes when I think about what I have lived with over the last two years.

I do have negative thoughts in association with my weight and a lot of that comes from my Mother offloading a lot of her mental/emotional problems onto me. I thought I was fat when I was eleven and if I’d known better I may not be as big as I am today.

BTW, I found my wheelchair in the shed today and it’s close to the door. Bitter-sweet news as there’s nothing I can do about this knowledge atm.

I do think that the connection between BIID and body weight is very interesting. BIID impacts us in all sorts of ways. It reminds me of some of my transsexual friends who have not really cared about their appearance until after they have transitioned to a gender presentation which matches their real gender.

Please don’t interpret that to mean that I view being overweight in a negative light. I don’t; not at all. However, you imply that you have negative feelings about yourself on that account. It makes perfect sense to me that it will be much easier for you align your body with the way you want it to be after you become a full time wheelchair user again.