My crying was completely out of control before I started on Prozac. Now I cry more appropriately, which is still most days but that’s normal for me. As for crying when you talk about BIID, I think that’s a good thing. I’ve had a lot of psychotherapy over the last seven years, and I can’t remember a single session in which I didn’t cry. It always felt like I had faced up to something when I started crying. I wouldn’t be surprised if you had a LOT of tears to shed over BIID. Let it all out girl! My close friend, who is a psychotherapist, deliberately tries to make her clients cry sometimes as a psychotherapeutic tool.

As for your Dad accompanying you, that’s entirely your decision based on what YOU think will be helpful. I brought my partner with me just for my first session talking about BIID. That was simply because I feel much less nervous talking about it if she is with me.

Regarding coming to transabled.org, I would agree that it doesn’t make my BIID any better at all. However, it does make some things better that are a consequence of having BIID.

I’m glad you had what seems like a good first session with this psychologist, Sophie. Keep us posted.

To second Becs, be wary of taking your dad to an appoointment unless you feel very sure it’s what you want. No clinician should pressure you into bringing along a relative.
And anti depressants won’t necessarily impact on feeling tearful or general mood swings. They treat things like sleep disturbance, anxiety, poor seratonin levels and low energy. You might prefer a mood stabiliser, but again don’t assume it is a panacea – all these meds have major side effects and are not to be used lightly (believe me I know;)). Beware of being prescribed them just because the doctor/psychologist is not sure what else to offer.

Tears are a natural result of discussing something that you have been struggling with for a long while. They will pass in time.

Keep in mind that not every med works for every person the same way. I know of several who cannot tolerate Prozac. I never had a problem with it. The reason for therapy and meds for you may be to help you get to a point where you’re more independent and feel more in control of your own life, transabled or not.

Your dr. sounds remarkably open-minded. However, I do wonder why he wants your father to accompany you. I would ask more questions about this if I were you, as it seems your family has not been helpful.

Good luck.