Talking about Body Integrity Identity Disorder – Just another disability!
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by Sean - 17 July 2009
Today I had a meeting with my therapist. I hadn’t seen her in about a month, and we haven’t done much real work together in nearly a year and a half. It was a rather productive session. It was good.
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by Sean - 25 April 2009
After a rather long wait for an appointment with a psychiatrist, I finally saw someone last week. There were in fact two someones in the meeting, a psychiatrist and a psychologist. End result: Two suggestions – therapy and medication.
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by Tom - 29 December 2008
I have tried to get therapy for the past eleven years or so. Initially, I wasn’t quite sure why, but I felt there was something wrong in my life (other than my BIID) and I expected to discover what that was. I made several attempts with different therapists. Lately, I mentioned my desire to have my left hand amputated and I also mentioned what happened in my childhood with my father and the accident I had when I was eight that left me with a temporarily paralysed left hand and that temporarily also saved me from the sex abuse. Do I Want To Get Cured? continues »
by Tom - 8 December 2008
It is not possible to pretend being an LBE amputee. The amputation I would like to have is through the wrist. Of course, this is not possible to simulate. The closest I can get to it is by making my hand as useless as possible and with as little sensitivity as possible. I have tried many methods to achieve this, and finally settled for a compromise. It involves closing my fist, thumb inside, and bandaging the whole thing quite tightly. The bandage must also go a little up the wrist so that there can be no wrist movement. Then I cover the whole thing with a "stump" sock. However, this still looks more or less like a closed fist. I found this could be made less obvious by letting a couple of finger "stumps" point out at the end of it. So I let my little finger and my major finger point out, but bent and bandaged so that they look like two short finger stumps. When asked, I tell people that I have an underdeveloped, malformed hand and that I have to wear a glove to protect it due to the fact that there isn’t any sensitivity in it.
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by Tom - 2 December 2008
I have tried hard, for the past 35 years or so, to overcome my unthinkable desire to loose my left hand. I have tried everything. I have run away from the desire in all directions. I have done many a thing I wouldn’t have done if it wasn’t to flee from my desire. Secret Garden continues »© transabled.org - 1994-2012 - All Rights Reserved.