by Sean - 5 July 2009
I was awoken by the shrill voices of school children on the sidewalk. As I surfaced from sleep, I had visions of using my paring knife to stab myself in the back. As I was almost awake, I asked myself "Is today *the* day?".
Is Today The Day? continues »
by Sean - 2 July 2009
I drowned once, when I was a teenager. It was quite peaceful for me. Obviously, they managed to get me back real quick-like. Now, I am at the top of a rather slippery slope, hanging on as hard as I can, because if I start slipping, I’ll end up in white water so fierce and cold, I’ll drown again, and it won’t be so peaceful this time.
What Awaits At The Bottom Of The Slippery Slope? continues »
by Sean - 30 June 2009
Over the years, I’ve come across many people who just up and cut ties with the BIID community, such as it is. They do it for many reasons, but one of the big reasons seems to be to appease the BIID pain. The idea is that if you don’t involve yourself with other people who have BIID, you won’t be thinking about it so much. I’m not sure it works.
Cutting Ties With BIID Community continues »
by Sean - 24 June 2009
My back has been quite sore for a long time. This is due, as I’ve mentionned mentionned on the site before, in great part to poor posture. The muscles are sore, but it also feels like the "bones" are sore. I often have to remind myself throughout the day to sit up straight, to realign my back. Last night, I vividly remembered the feeling of wearing a back brace.
That Braced Feeling continues »
by Sean - 22 June 2009
I will always remember the first time I met my late wife. We weren’t married then, of course. She picked me up at the airport, then drove to her place. We stopped at a liquor store on the way. I was so worried about doing my transfer from the car to the chair properly, and she was just laughing at me. She said "there’s no right way to transfer".
Am I Doing It Right? continues »