by Phil - 11 August 2010
After too much work at too late hours, I got a fever. Over 40 degrees Celsius (104 degrees
Fahrenheit). I was in bed and slept most of the time. And in between sleep and being awake,
I felt my stumps so vividly, so clearly and so detailed.
Fever continues »
by Phil - 8 August 2010
Recently I saw the film "le fil". It is the story of a young architect who comes home from France
to his mother in Tunis. She is French, but was married to a Tunisian who died some time
ago. (See also http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1302559/).
The String (Le Fil) continues »
by Phil - 6 August 2010
What would I do without BIID? What would I be? If there really was a way to "tame" it, to
reduce the pressure… what would I do all day?
Without BIID continues »
by Phil - 4 August 2010
When I was a boy, I played both in reality and in fantasy with all kinds of disabilities. I played
amputated, blind, deaf, paralysed… But most often it was an amputation of my right leg in
the thigh which was on my mind, or of both legs.
Changes continues »
by Phil - 2 February 2010
Often I feel ashamed for myself. Sometimes because I don’t feel to be prepared well enough for a meeting or so – and often just because of being who I am. Today I shopped for some groceries and such and in the shop I felt self-conscious and, well, yes, ashamed of myself. Without any real reason. When I thought I was there in a wheelchair, all this shame vanished – for a moment.
Being Ashamed For Myself continues »