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BIID Definition and Recommendations

by Dan - 2 December 2009

Before I was an amputee, I seemed to suffer from an alphabet soup of disorders: PTSD, poor self-worth, hypersensitivity, anxiety disorder.  Lots of therapy didn’t really make any progress on any of these. I thought (in strenuous disagreement with therapists) that if I had my leg cut off I might be able to start making progress on these other things.

Up And Down Revisited

by Dan - 23 September 2009

Before amputation, my BIID was up and down a lot.  Now I am much more stable, but there is still some up and down. Before, when BIID was up, I really despised being what I was.  When it was down, I was mildly unhappy about being what I was.

Therapy

by Dan - 28 August 2007

I wrote a while ago that I was going to see a therapist who treats PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). The idea is that I think I have PTSD as well as BIID, and PTSD is supposed to be treatable.

Emotions

by Dan - 31 July 2007

Here is an idea I have only recently been able to express. I have mentioned that my wish to be one-legged is strongest when I am very unhappy OR when I am very happy.

Dan’s Resolution

by Dan - 30 July 2007

I am still on the road and rarely get online. Now I am at an Iowa rest stop where they have Wi-Fi access. I hope this becomes more widely available.

I realized that I was completely stuck, not knowing where to go or what to do. How long should I keep this truck driving job? Can I stand not having my leg off? Will it become so overwhelming that I will do it on the spur of the moment, as I am often tempted when near a railroad track? Will I have to leave my wife after having my leg off? If I leave her before having my leg off, will I still need it so badly?