by Tom - 30 November 2008
I have wanted all my life to be disabled. It started at an early age. And the kind of disability doesn’t really matter to me. What matters is just to be disabled. In that sense, I suppose I’m not a "genuine case of BIID", if I may say so. Amputation? Paralysis? Upper limb? Lower limb? One, two, three or four limbs? Or a sensorial impairment? As a matter of fact, I can’t recognise myself as a BIID sufferer in the sense that my "condition" doesn’t involve a specific type of impairment but rather a need to have something different - and disabled - in my body. There are, however, disabilities that I like better than others and, as I explained elsewhere, my body image is basically that of a one handed - an lbe amputee. But it is not just about my own image, since I also admire other disabled persons. Perhaps I am both a BIID case and an admirer.
Je me Souviens continues »
by Sarah - 29 November 2008
I’m home alone for a few days and so of course I immediately put my neck brace on. I don’t have a wheelchair - that’s not as easy to hide as a case full of neck and back braces.
Source of Solace continues »
by Chloe - 28 November 2008
It may appear that being a hermaphrodite (intersexed) is entirely unrelated to BIID. My psychotherapist has pointed out that psychology is complicated, and almost everything is connected with almost everything else. He and I have discussed my intersex-BIID connections at great length. After all, intersex psychology is one of his specialties. We found four distinct ways in which being a hermaphrodite has substantially affected the development of my BIID.
The Intersex Connection continues »
by Tom - 27 November 2008
I have been working all day, I have been putting up my usual show, I have performed my usual performance as an able bodied, respectable, adult professional. All day. Like a machine, all day. Feeling less, emotionless, professional, cold and efficient.
Causes continues »
by Sean - 26 November 2008
Yes, the answer to BIID is to study Zen Buddhism, or so "my" psychiatrist told me recently. Now, this is the guy I had a bad vibe about, as I described to you guys not so long ago. I saw him once. Several weeks ago. He was supposed to get back to me about meeting with his colleagues. He didn’t. Then, he rings me at home one evening.
The answer to BIID is Zen Buddhism! continues »