by Sean - 31 March 2008
I’ve been silent a while. I have some stuff to say, but it’s bleak, very bleak. And I don’t want to give the impression I’m whining (and no, that’s not the reference to winetasting…). I’ve been dealing with an old nemesis, depression, and a renewed and somewhat intensified BIID related hopelessness. All that mixed together and the picture isn’t pretty.
BIID, depression, winetasting, and other ramblings on hopelessness continues »
by Sean - 20 March 2008
I’ve been using the term "BIID Sufferer" on and off. It’s not an expression I particularly like. It seems… Somewhat negative, and as a friend says "ableist". It does not exactly describe me. Yet it uses a concept that most people can relate to and understand. So I continue to use it, despite it not describing the subtle difference in how I really feel about it. And that made me think of other subtleties of language.
BIID Sufferer? Language and concepts subtleties continues »
by Sean - 12 March 2008
I’ve spoken to three people who have self-injured recently. Success varies. I must admit, I feel bitter-sweet about it. One managed to paralyse their ankles/feet, another did so much damage to his lower leg that he’ll be undergoing amputation surgery in the next few days, and the last one did not manage the desired paralysis, but is left with tremendous nerve pain.
Ramblings on self-injury continues »
by Sean - 5 March 2008
Today’s been particularly horrid BIID-wise. Damn it hurts. I was talking with someone and said "this too shall pass". But it doesn’t, does it?
This too shall pass? continues »
by Eric - 4 March 2008
My wife is in bed right now. When she goes to bed early, I often will use the late night hours to read the posts on this site and to wander the net, looking for others that have feelings like mine. It’s a bizarre ritual that I am finding myself growing ashamed of.
Late night ritual, dream come true continues »