by Claire - 23 October 2006
My days are filled with an unending succession of elation, angst, depression,
normalcy, trepidation and daydreams. My nights are filled with strange dreams
I don’t remember but leave me feeling frightened and anxious when they wake
me in the small hours of the morning. Understand that this is the first time
in my life I’ve experienced something like this. I’m not really prone to strange
anxieties and mood swings.
What Am I So Afraid Of? continues »
by Claire -
Sean asked me to write about my feelings over buying my first wheelchair. But
it’s so complex, I hardly know where to start.
My New Wheelchair continues »
by Claire -
I keep thinking this isn’t really happening. I don’t really have
BIID. I’m just imagining it. It’ll go away. I’ll be OK.
So I’ve joined the two Yahoo groups for BIID. I’ve made friends with other transabled people. I email Sean every 5 minutes. I’ve become a part
of transabled.org. I’ve told my husband I have a rare mental illness. And now,
I’ve just bought a wheelchair. It’s all a bit surreal. My brain can’t
quite come to terms with any of it.
In Denial continues »
by Sean - 22 October 2006
Yesterday, my partner and I decided to go for a drive. We planned to enjoy the scenery, and perhaps meet with a couple people that we heard shared common interests (not wheelchair stuff). We rarely go out together anymore. Schedule doesn’t agree much, but perhaps there’s something else as well… Before going, I could feel the tension mount in me. She didn’t say, but I had a strong feeling she didn’t want me to bring the chair.
No wheelchair… continues »
by Claire -
In my last post I talked about how the surgical cure
may be the better choice for the transabled (assuming it was available).
But to be perfectly honest, my personal beliefs tell me that the surgical cure is wrong.
Running Out of Options continues »