Talking about Body Integrity Identity Disorder - Just another disability!
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by Sean - 1 January 1997
I received recently an email from someone that has none of the desires/interests I describe on this page and he was telling me that while he was usually pretty open minded about other people’s quirks, this one scared him; that it was actually more than he needed to know. I am saddened that someone would feel this way, but I accept it. At least he had the honesty of telling me what he felt in an adult way.
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by Sean -
Those desires I have about using the chair are not a hobby for me. They are very real… And yes if they get out of hand it can lead to serious hurt. Emotional hurt, but also if one gets desperate enough, physical hurt. But by relenting to my desires I allow myself to live experiences I think I need. I used a sentence the other day, concerning another topic, but I feel it fits: “Only by stopping your controlling acts over your life and letting it flow can you truly control your life”. To let your desires get out of control is a sort of control in itself. You just let it happen, knowing that you will learn more about yourself that way, if you listen. I know that without using my chair so much I wouldn’t be where I am now. It seems that until I got the chair, my evolution was only in the setting up process. But since I’ve had and used my chair, it all started coming together.
by Sean -
Now a few questions come to mind, but there is one in particular I would like to present here: “If you had the choice to become paralyzed, would you prefer a spinal cord injury (SCI) or a disease?” I understand it is a rather moot and rhetoric point, since we aren’t given the choice. But since the question was raised in a few conversations I’ve had, I thought to present it here.
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by Sean -
A lot has happened in the last few weeks. Mainly some insights were gained for me, about myself. I think I am finally starting to understand a little more about my feelings and why I feel the way I feel. Of course, one could say it doesn’t really matter to understand where it all comes from, and I have held that position, and perhaps still hold it. But I can assure you that having a beginning of an understanding has given me some peace of mind and quietened a lot of turmoil within.
Need for attention? continues »
by Sean -
Someone just proposed an explanation of why we feel like we do. It is not a scientific explanation, far from it… But what if??? At this point it is as good an explanation as any other, so I figure I might as well present it here. What if we desperately want to be disabled, be it amputated, receive a SCI, or anything else, because we were disabled in a past life and were not able to deal with it? Is it not possible that we would search for the disability in order to then be able to come to terms with it?
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